Decisions, Decisions!

I HATE making them!!!!
Big or small, doesn't matter.
When I look back and really think about some of the decisions that take me forever to decide on, I wonder why I even wasted my time thinking about it in the first place. Some examples of the things that take me a ridiculously long time to decide:
Where should we go for dinner? Is it going to matter in the end if I choose one place over the other? No, we're most likely going to enjoy it either way because we don't have to cook it.
Should we buy the 34 or 36 inch dog kennel? I honestly thought about this for about two months before I settled on one and the dogs cuddle up in a corner of the damn thing and don't even realize they have an extra 2 inches!
What movie to watch at night...I've seen them all and I own them all so why does it even flipping matter? I say that now, but in the moment, it takes me 10 minutes to pick one.

Then there is the issue of having waaay to many choices to even consider making a decision. It is a common occurrence in our household to hear me saying "That's too many, give me two choices and then I'll decide". I can't even handle shopping at Macy's for clothes because there are too many sections and options and racks...I can't handle it! Thank heavens I have a wonderfully patient husband who wants my opinion and is willing to wait for it without trying to strangle me, even if that means laying porch tile out four different ways three times each until I can decide on the pattern I want. I will admit that he us not the best decision maker either. We have a lot of conversations that go like this- "What do you want for dinner?" "I don't care, you pick" "No you can pick" "Well do you want this or this" ( remembering to give me the two choices thing like I'm 3) "Either one is fine" - seriously how ANNOYING and this is not only for dinner. It happens with lots of small things we do daily where a choice needs to be made. And of course we don't make things easy either. We are not the type of people who buy the same bread, and soap, laundry detergent, tooth paste or really the same anything. What can I say, we like change. So just imagine what it is like standing in the liquor store with us trying to pick a bottle of wine. You probably would have picked your own bottle and be drunk already while waiting for us!

Now imagine us trying to make a big decision. A life changing decision...NOT FUN!!! I am stressed! I go back and forth and write a pros and cons list and talk about the good and the bad and the what ifs and the unknowns and I want answers to EVERYTHING!!! Which is another thing my husband is amazing at...knowing answers to everything, and if he doesn't know he figures it out, so then I can add it to my pros and cons list! And because we make big life changing decisions together, he continues to wait for me to give my input while I pick apart everything over and over and ask him 6 million more questions (probably even the same questions over and over just to be sure the answer didn't change) and then I finally decide, and feel good about my decision and I let it sit for a day or so and let it sink in. Then, I often have this panic state of "Crap! What if that's the wrong choice!" Let me tell you, I have some serious issues with this!! But, I can honestly say that thus far, I have not regretted any big life decisions and I've learned from them all, but right now we're trying to make a big one and I don't know the answer or what the right choice for us is. I would love to be one of those people who just goes for it and does things in a split second because they had a great idea and they don't stress over it. I'm working on finding a happy medium and becoming a better decision maker. Maybe the answer to this big one will come to me in a dream or I'll just wake up one morning and know... but until that miracle happens, I'll be writing a pros and cons list and driving Jim crazy!

Happy decision making to you all.